I'm Beginning To Understand Why Trying Isn't Always Good Enough.

So, Hairshow weekend. The big midwest show. It was kind of exciting. my hair is new, but I don't have my mac so I can't take a picture of it and show you. Oh well. I slept on it anyways.
I didn't really meet anyone exciting this year. We got to smoke inside, and that was exciting.
We drove, Meg and I. I borrowed my mom's car and we drove to and from the convention center both days. I feel like an experience driver, now that I know how to successfully navigate highways and cities.
I also drove home to see the boy on sunday. We were going to go out for dinner. He sent me over early so that I could order one of those pizza things from panera. Hads he gotten out on time, he and the pizza thing would have have arrived at the table I was sitting at moments apart. However, Like I predicted, Kyle was 20 minutes late getting out. The pizza was cold, I didn't want any, and I was a sobby mess.
we talked through it.
Last night I drove the car home so that mom could have it for today. I saw Kyle last night. we went out to dinner and otherwise occupied the time so that he couldn't drop me off at the train station (he had to go home). I decided, I'll stay here tonight. So I did. I'm sitting at the computer my littler siblings use, typing up a blog entry.
Now, Kyle says he can't come and get me until after his class. his class ends at 4. the absolute latest train that I can take is the 4:40. He says he might get out early, that he's going to try. I've sat through his teacher. they aren't going to get out early.
Thank you Kyle, for trying so hard. For making me think that I had a ride to the train station to catch a train that I absolutely need to. For giving me reason to tell my mom that she didn't need to worry about driving me to the train station. You would do it. Really, trying isn't good enough. I'm a sobby mess again.
I don't know what is wrong with me.
I don't know what is wrong with me.
I'm sick and tired and upset no matter how long I sleep or calm down.
I don't know what is wrong with me.

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